I’ve noticed lately that I have been uncomfortable. I’m not sure why, though. It could be the fact that I am nearly 8 months pregnant and not sleeping right, but I’m not sold on just that. It could also be that my family is experiencing a lot of change – a new baby is almost here, we are about to be moving for the 6th time in less than 4 years, we have lots of projects to do in the new house before our baby’s arrival, etc. All of this has made me overwhelmed and exhausted. Sometimes, at the end of the day, I don’t even know what to do with myself. When I get in bed do I “relax” and peruse the internet? I’ve tried that and it doesn’t help my mood. I click and scroll and skim until my eyes can’t hold themselves open anymore and then shut my laptop and call it night, all to start again the next day. I know it’s not just me either – my husband Bryce is utterly exhausted too. He has done an incredible job at trying to keep me grounded during all the changes while working long hours and most times cooking for us. I have definitely been blessed with an amazing husband. He is so wonderful that sometimes I think I can find everything in him, that he can provide me with all the love, comfort, support, and happiness that I need. It isn’t fair for me to believe that, even for a minute. It puts an incredible amount of pressure on him to do something that humans are not even capable of doing. That doesn’t mean I do not love my husband with every bit of my heart. It doesn’t mean we don’t have confide in one another. We still need to comfort and support one another and recommit ourselves to each other every single day. But we must first focus on our relationship with the Lord.
Psalm 40:2 “God also brought me up out of a horrible pit, out of the miry clay, and set my feet upon a rock, and established my steps.” Let’s stop trying to fill emptiness with things or people. It’s not fair to do that to someone and it will eventually result in disappointment. Fill emptiness with the Lord’s love. It is infinite.
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Megan
1/23/2017 06:42:07 pm
Great post, Aften!
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