I may or may not have a slight obsession with planners. Its just something about making a schedule and knowing what to expect for my day, week, month and even year that makes me feel so happy and secure. My planner also allows me to indulge in my other obsession of list making. I rely so much on my planner and lists that it got me thinking about how nice it would be to have those types of resources for my faith. Just a nice planner sent directly from God with all the events of my life mapped out inside. Can you imagine? Today's devotional talked about our assignment to follow Jesus and allowing him to direct our path. I know for myself sometimes when Jesus says " Follow me, Rachel" I immediately get a lump in my throat, my palms start to sweat, I'm nervous, unsure and definitely uncomfortable. The perfect example of this was when Hunter got a job offer in a new field as a construction superintendent which would have us moving 1,200 miles away from our family and would have us moving to a new state every year for an indefinite amount of time. In our' "life planner", that was never even a thought. We figured we would always stay in Texas, live close to our families and stay in our little bubble of comfort and familiarity. I knew deep down that this is what the Lord was calling us to do but I wasn't comfortable with all of the unknowns and my emotional reaction to this new calling went a little something like this: I'm ok with that Lord, but you're gonna have to show me the plan (every detail of it) before I'll come with You. God, if you'll send me a sign that this is where you want us to go, then I'll go. Just hand me your planner, lists, and itinerary and i'm your girl. I truly think that if God gave me that planner and map of my life, I would immediately hyperventilate from the weight of that responsibility. Its too much for us to know all the details of God's perfect plans for us. I think we would try so hard to live up to those plans He has for us instead of resting in knowing He has our lives completely under control. For I know the plans I have for you declares the Lord. |
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