Bryce and I have been waiting on a home purchase for months. Aside from being pregnant, this is the longest we have waited for anything. It’s a short sale and has been nearly 8 months. It’s been the kind of waiting where no one told us it would be THIS long and each time we think we are close to the end of the waiting, turns out, we are waiting some more. I had this big plan to be moved in by Christmas giving us just enough time to update some things in the house, move in, unpack, get everything decorated, and be ready for little John John to arrive! I have been buying little decorations and items for the house little by little and saving them in the basement of the house we are currently renting. I have been stressing out when life is happening around me thinking “…but that’s probably going to be right when we are moving!” I have legitimately been putting our life on hold in the last 7+ months thinking it would make things easier for when our plan finally worked out and we moved. Well guess what? Nothing ever goes according to plan. I don’t know why I try to plan and control things! Maybe it makes me feel calm? But it doesn’t! It only upsets me when my “plans” don’t go accordingly. This is not only true for our situation for buying this specific house, but for anything! I remember trying to plan getting pregnant with Scarlette. I stopped living my regular life and began making calculated decisions for something that maybe wasn’t the right timing. Boy was that upsetting when it didn’t happen exactly when I had planned. It only worried me even though it was all out of my control. Why are we waiting? Why are we putting our life on hold? God wants us to let go and choose Him. Not a house. Not the perfect timing of a baby. Not whatever it is that we are choosing instead of Him. I have, 100%, put more time and thought into the things I think I can control than my relationship with the Lord. It doesn’t make me happy to say that. I have to remind myself and have Bryce remind me as well that it is out of our hands. God has beautiful perfect plans for our lives and when we choose Him, He reveals them to us.
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Tani Washington
2/17/2017 08:25:27 pm
I LOVE this!
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Jessica Holt
2/17/2017 08:59:06 pm
Exactly what I needed to read, it was right on the dot! Love your blog!
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Lauri Lee
2/19/2017 12:29:02 am
👍🏻 Thanks Aften! Just what I need to do also- let go & quit trying to control. Great Bible verses!
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